I'm Not Really Here Book

Paul Lake was Manchester born a City fan from birth. His footballing talent was spotted at a young age and in 1983 he signed coveted schoolboy forms for City. Only a short time later he was handed the team captaincy. An international career soon beckoned and after turning out for the England under-21 and B teams he received a call-up to the England training camp for Italia '90. Despite missing out on a place in the final squad he suitably impressed the management with Bobby Robson earmarking him as an England captain in the making. As a rising star Paul became a target for top clubs like Manchester United Arsenal Spurs and Liverpool but he always stayed loyal to his beloved club deeming Maine Road the spiritual home at which his destiny lay. But then in September 1990 disaster struck. Paul ruptured his cruciate ligament and sustained the worst possible injury that a footballer can suffer. And so began his nightmare. Neglected ignored and misunderstood by his club after a career-saving operation was irreversibly botched Paul's career began to fall apart.Watching from the sidelines as similarly injured players regained their fitness he spiralled into a prolonged bout of severe depression. With an enforced retirement from the game he adored the death of his father and the collapse of his marriage Paul was left a broken man. Set against a turning point in English football "I'm Not Really Here" is the powerful story of love and loss and the cruel irreparable damage of injury; of determination spirit and resilience and of unfulfilled potential and broken dreams.Read More